This is a good symptom. I'm beginning to look at the brighter side of the
universe. Perhaps, I might be able to start a new life. My problem, however, is
that I may not be comfortable if things are better off. I've got so much used
to miserable situations and , to me, adversity is simply a norm. This has been 
a dillema in my life for a long time. I now realize that I do not have much time
left and I feel I really need to cope with a new situation before I die.
( November 23, 2005 )